Terkadang manusia perlu nasihat dan pilihan, membantunya mengambil langkah dan tujuan.
Ada saat manusia perlu pembenaran bukan kebenaran sejati, menjaga semangat dan langkahnya kedepan.
Di lain waktu manusia harus mencari kebenaran sendiri, mengusir segala kebimbangan.
Sering manusia memilih membohongi diri dengan kata “aku percaya”, “aku yakin”, berperang dengan diri sendiri
Tetapi lebih sering manusia memilih untuk menutup mata, berharap semua memang seperti keinginannya, karna takut melihat kenyataan yang berbeda.
continue reading »
Have you ever feel lost and alone?, you feel like you are completely alone have nothing noone, you even did not recognize who you really are and what you really want, you lost yourself in your own mind, standing in the cross road but have no desire to leave though you knew which is the best direction for yourself, but you just stuck, stand, quiet, nothing in your mind, completely blank (fiuh kinda melodramatic situation)
I am standing in this situation, kinda body without a soul.
G. I felt like you are just start ridding your own path to the life you’ve been dreaming, but i did not know why i push myself down to hell while i succeed to push you up high to the sky.
Dreaming again, missing sometime in the past, hanging around with no place to go …
Lately I haven’t got enough sleep, work till late almost everyday and no holiday at all, some says i am killing myself with this habits, i know but i must do this way, there are dreams to realize, and most important need to gain some for myself & my fams.
Often i got extreme headache, and usually only take a hours before it getting better and i am ready to strike back, but then i am starting to get more and more and this take days before i am ready to keep my eyes wide open, yeah my medical background is not clean at all, i have thypus, vertigo, inflammation. Hopely this is nothing more than hypotension.
Just waking up, hoorray i have 3 hours sleep, lately i have no dream et al but nightmare,
- Internet connection (IM2) slow like hell at 8 AM – 11 PM, so i need to become batman, sleep at daylight and work at night, if i could i will shoot them with machine gun IM2 S.U.C.K.S
- Many projects coming with close deadline between them, am i greedy? not really thats because some of them were pending in the middle for some reasons, and re-started closely each other
- Problem wih my own website, if you followed me on twitter than you knew that i have a problem with my server, load slow as hell, daily visitor rapidly shrinkage from thousands to a hundred average visitors
Last night i stand a night long against couple projects and my server problem, they are all defeated, am I win? not et al, i should sacrifice my sleep time and g i am really sleepy though i already have 3 hours, but i think i need more …
I am kinda hayseed guy (hoorray i am proud for saying this), and I did not belive in the glorious of valentine, for me valentine is no more than a western folks, but its interesting to know what others think about it, the easiest way is by asking Google, and here are what google founds about the definitions of valentine.
continue reading »
Fiuh really tired, got less sleep last night, awake from 2:00 AM until now, i have huge list of tasks to be done by today, and some of them has given me a lot of headache!, writing couple wordpress plugins for my project and investigate few bugs in my prior web projects.
continue reading »
The story begin at 2:30 Bali time when the prince of frog waking up from his early sleeps,
what a deadly night it is, i thought the night is just began
he whispered himself.
Unusual night, so quiet, cold, and I feel auras of evil around here
again he talk to himself.
continue reading »
I wonder why i cannot find a good personal experience and thought to share while i found many people (bloggers) out there easily write down a simple part of their life in their personal blogs, hmmm i should try once, though i dont think i have some to share here excepts profanity and desperation huh.
continue reading »
